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September 18th, 2013

a year ago on this exact date, around 1am I discovered that the guy I had been with for 4 years/my fiancé had been seeing another girl behind my back. Needless to say I was devastated and stuff happened that I don't wish to mention it was a traumatic night. This wasn't the first time he had cheated on me but I forgave him the first time. My world was completely shattered that night, I ended my relationship, engagement and lost myself too. Having your heart broken like I did was probably the hardest experience I've encountered. You put trust in another person for so many years and think they will never hurt you but then it all gets flipped upside down. I had moments where I just wanted to give up on life I will be honest, but I had my friends and family who were there for me to help keep me going. It's been a rough year and yes today feels weird because I think back to last year around this time and I was in the darkest place when it came to my emotions. It was hard to move forward, it was hard not to think about what I expected my life to be like and what it was like then. I had plans for my life and I lost it all, I had no idea who I was. Over the past year I have grown so much, I still have moments where I feel insecure with myself and I always will, but I know who I am now, and I realized I could be alone. September 18,2014 ; I am now in a relationship with an amazing guy who I befriended around 6 months ago and he was always there for me. Honestly it's terrifying being in a new relationship or just one in general after being through what I went through but my boyfriend Tom is amazing, he reminds me everyday that I am beautiful, he let's me know how much he cares for me, he has been hurt in the past so he understands what I went through and I don't think he would ever do anything like that to me. I have the best friends in the world who I have connected with even more this past year. I want to love my body and myself even more it's just hard to feel like I will be enough since I was so easily disposable after four years, but I will work so hard to do this. I'm happy finally, my mind isn't in a dark place anymore and it feels nice. We will see what the future holds for me but I'm hoping it's good :  ) ❤️☺️
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